In the past couple months I have been struggling alot with self image. I just feel like I can try as hard as I can to look pretty, but then I look in the mirror, and look awful. I am not writing this as a pity post. I have wanted to get my feelings out, express myself and not complain to my poor husband anymore. I have always thought I was "cute", but always saw so many other girls I wanted to look like. Then about two years ago, I grew to love myself inside and out. I loved the way I looked and actually thought I was pretty. Lately though, I don't know what my problem is. I have slowly started to get really bad self esteem, but so badly want to love myself again. I have been trying a lot harder lately to just accept myself and love the unique things about myself. It sure is hard, but I know I can do it. My husband is so great and tells me everyday how beautiful I am. I know he has seen how it hurts me that I don't think I am pretty and I love and appreciate all the kind things he says about me. I love Stephanie Neilson. If you do not know who she is or heard her story, you must. nieniedialouges.blogspot.com
She was in a plane crash years ago and burned over 80% of her body. She writes an inspiring blog about her everyday trials and triumps. I try to think of her everytime I think something bad about myself. She looks completely different but is so beautiful inside and out. I am so blessed with a healthy body and spirit and need to embrace it. I think working on one thing at a time will bring me slow but steady improvements.
I WANT to love myself. I NEED to love myself.