I'm Baaaaaaaaack

F R I E N D S

As alot of you know, I deleted

my blog a couple months back. I figured there

was no use for it anymore and I had nothing positive

to write about at the time. My life was pretty crappy around the.

But I have still read up on a lot of my friends' blogs

and alot of them said their blogs are very theraputic

and they are able to express themselves 

and get alot of things out.

I am, like many, one who holds alot in.

I don't know why I do this and I have even tried

to break the habit, but with no success.

So I feel this will help...at least I hope.

One thing I have struggled alot with this year is

good friends.

I have lost alot of friends in the past year.

I know it's going to happen and I by the time I'm 30 I

probably won't talk to most of them, BUT, it is hard.

Around the time that my wedding got called off I was obviously

having a REALLY REALLY hard time. And some of

the people I needed the most, were not there. I had alot of

friends gossip, judge, and push me away at that time.

And this was really hard on me. It made things alot
worse than they should have been.
I have let alot of things go since then and moved on a
little from letting the friend thing bug me. But still
have instances where it makes me really sad when I run
into old friends or hear about them. But I'm learning,
growing, and have met alot of new WONDERFUL friends.

Patience